I'm Angela Bakhshiyants.

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Palm Coast.

Fri, 21 May 2010 17:02:49 -0400

Well, pretty much all of the people i know hate Palm Coast. And yes, i agree, at times its very hard to live here. And why is that? Because its full of Drama, Sex, Drugs, Smoking, and ect. It definitely has brought us to meet some amazing people, who are now our bestfriends. But, this place never took us anywhere good in life. In my opinion, i think Palm Coast is amazing, but when it comes to everything that goes around here, no one wants to stay here, including me. I had alot of experiences here, some are terrible, and some are amazing. But, all in all, Palm Coast isnt the best place to be in, there are a bunch of backstabbing “friends”, and i think it might be the number one drama state. But, everyone including me, should be lucky the met their bestfriends, and soulmates, and everyone else. Its not that bad once you get used to everything around you thats going on.

Love.

Thu, 20 May 2010 12:41:08 -0400

Real love is unconditional. All other “forms” of love are not really love. Most parents and kids don’t love each other, most people in relationships don’t love each other, most people on the planet never experience unconditional love in their entire lives… or at least it sure looks that way.

To love someone unconditionally means that you love the person exactly as they are, exactly as they were before, and exactly as they will be in the future – because people change all the time, so if you love the person, you will love them even if they become something you disagree with. How many parents can say that about their kids? How many people can say that about their “lover”? Love is not about you or your pleasure or your amusement. It’s not about what you get out of it or what the other person can give to you. It’s not about having a trophy you can show off with and tell people “This is *MY* girlfriend/boyfriend/wife/husband/son/daughter/whatever”. You do not “own” anyone. It’s not about you feeling ‘proud’ to be with someone who always agrees with everything you say and do and never does anything you disagree with. Unconditional love means that the person can just live their life exactly as they choose and you will always be there for them no matter what.

So, how does unconditional love fit in with relationships and marriage and sex and all that stuff the whole world keeps going crazy over? It doesn’t, really. It doesn’t “fit” in anywhere. Relationships are like trying to put love into a box and keep it there, except love is infinitely sized, and the box is… well, there is no box large enough. And a normal, conventional marriage is quite possibly the worst possible way to show someone how much you love them.

Unconditional love is more of a spiritual thing. It’s not bound by physical things, like blood relations and the desire to procreate. It has nothing whatsoever to do with sex. Most people are in relationships because they’re horny and/or lonely, even if they genuinely think they love the other person. But if the person they “love” suddenly lost their “equipment” for whatever reason, would they still want to be with that person? Would they get jealous if the person they “love” wanted to spend time with other people as well? Relationships based on needs are not unconditional.

In order to truly understand love, you must first forget everything you have ever learned about it from society and anyone else (including what I just said). You are the only person who can tell you what love is. The only reason I’m writing all this stuff is because people always try to fit “love” in with things like dating, relationships and marriage and all that. You can’t make any sense of it if you keep doing that. You have to get rid of everything you think you know first.

Life.

Thu, 20 May 2010 00:01:01 -0400

I have experienced alot in life so far. I would probably be thankful for everything, i have a roof above my head, clothes on my back, and food too eat. But thats not everything. I have always thought that in life everyone will be in love, and everyone will be happy. But, apparently, thats not that easy to accomplish. Over the past years i have lived, i realized, your not always happy, you have tons of things going on in your life that dont lead you too happiness, and i try my best to be happy, i have fell in love with someone, and i probably will never get over him, i cry all night, but, he doesnt, he could careless, and that person is stopping me from moving on in my life and being happy. But, love isnt always a bad thing, but so far in my life, it didnt do anything good. And, in life, people my age go through. Drama, Sex, Drugs, Drinking and ect. They dont realize what kind of things they get into, and thats what stopping them from being happy. I hope everyone will have everything they wanted, to be loved, and having an amazing life.

Angela Bakhshiyants.

Wed, 19 May 2010 23:53:00 -0400

Angela Bakhshiyants.